Up To Speed | Part One

I was very much on the fence about starting a new blog. One of my biggest stumbling blocks was what to write about. Let me go back a little to 2007. Before my son was born Linda and I thought it would be best for her to work and me to stay home and raise our son. My editing work was drying up due to the impending financial crisis. Budgets on projects were shrinking if not evaporating. It was kind of a no-brainer but saying it was difficult would be an understatement. Less than a year after my son was born in 2008 the shit hit the fan. The financial world imploded. Linda works in finance. You know what happened next. She lost her job. A mad scramble ensued to get us out of Manhattan, rent a suitable place for our family for less than the catastrophically high rent we were paying and for Linda to find a new job, fast. Easy enough, right? Needless to say, we got settled in Brooklyn and Linda changed jobs, twice. We moved three times in the past four years. It was a giant tailspin of stress and anxiety that I'm glad is behind us. Everything was stable, more or less.

So what about me? As much as I truly and deeply love my son we all know that the first year or two of raising a child can be filled with soul-crushing, thankless work. No surprises there. Compound that with everything I just spoke of and I never thought I would see the light of day. I never thought I would be able to have a coherent thought much less find the ability to write another screenplay again. It was a struggle and I mean in the existential sense. I didn't even know who I was anymore. I mean, I was this guy who edited by day, wrote screenplays in between jobs and watched dozens of films. That was all gone. I couldn't write because I didn't know my own point of view anymore and I was fucking exhausted. If I wanted to continue, something had to change.

To be continued...